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A Beautiful Life

Yet again I have left it a while between posts and so I thought I would share why!

After becoming a single mum 2 and a half years ago, my life has been very much an online existence. Facebook became my best friend and I started blogging. Not because I didn’t have friends, but because initially I was heavily pregnant and then had a baby at home and my “real” life was for my daughters – something I in no way regret but I forgot about me completely.

Now I have me back and that shows in the fact that the internet is now just something in the background! Thing is though, I don’t just want my blog to be a record of my life while I was lost. I hope one day my daughters will be old enough to read this and make sense of what I have been going through bringing them up and maybe that will help them with their own adult lives and also, if they can relate their lives to mine that can only make for a better relationship with them.

So what’s been going on with me………

Well as my regular readers will know, I am working now. I’ve been back in the workplace for 6 months and wow that has flown by. I love my job, and in the role I have that has to be a good thing. I’m working with kids, which is what I always wanted, and I hope that I am making a positive change in their lives. It’s hard work and not without it’s stress but I am blessed with the ability to switch off when I get home.

B is growing up fast, she turns 8 in January and I am so proud of the girl she is. For a kid who woke up one morning at the age of 5 to be told mummy and daddy wouldn’t be living together any more and that she would have to move 700 miles away from the only life she had so far known, things could have been very different. She is settled and doing well at school, has a great group of friends, has started Brownies and dance club and I love her more than I can put in words.

As for H, well she has never known a different life and for her I am glad. She is settled at nursery, has her extended family all around her and is a very smart 2 year old. She makes me laugh, cry and has taught me a lot in her so far short time in my life.

As my girls get older, every day I learn more about me, the real me that has been lost for too long. I’ve learnt that I am strong and independent and that sometimes I can try to be too independent for my own good. My barriers went up 2 and a half years ago, both to shelter me from those in my life and those who I would and still will meet. It wasn’t a conscious thing but its only since those barriers have started to come down that I see how tall they were!

I’m now on my quest for the slim me. I no longer feel the need to comfort eat jumbo bags of crisps with dip every night. I had put on more weight since having H, than I did while I carried her. But I’m putting my strength into it and it’s paying off.Last week I lost another half pound, which brings the total up to 11lb. In itself that’s brilliant, but that’s also my first target hit as I have now lost 5% of my starting body weight. Clothes feel looser and people can actually notice the difference now. There is still a way to go but I am confident that by Christmas I will look a lot slimmer and feel even better about myself.

So that’s work and the kids all wrapped up but there is something else in my life now, or should I say someone. All I want to say on this subject, for now, is to that special someone – Thank you! I don’t know if you will read this but if you do you know who you are. My mornings start with a smile no matter how bad the weather and life feels whole again. I don’t just live for my kids and my job, I live for me again and I feel like I have been set free. Whatever may or may not happen in the future, I look forward to finding out!

For my readers, please bear with me as I know my posts have been hit and miss for a while, I guess sometimes life does get in the way and whilst I do feel a little sad that I don’t post things as often as I used to, I love the fact it’s because life is so good right now!!

October 4, 2010 - Posted by | Me, myself and I

1 Comment »

  1. A great post. So, so, so happy for you! I hope to be posting something similar at some point next year!

    Comment by Nicola | October 11, 2010 | Reply

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