A Whole New World

What is this feeling, I don’t understand it. My girls are at Daddy’s, I’m sat home alone, trying to sort out things for a car boot tomorrow and I’m just feeling fantastic! For the 1st time since I have been a single Mum I am actually enjoying my weekend off without wondering what they are up to every second. Yet I really wasn’t prepared for it, as you will know from reading my blogs on the run up to Daddy coming home.

 

Yesterday I spent the morning with Daddy, H and L, going through the changes in both B and H’s routines and boundaries. The afternoon was spent sorting things for the car boot, then I took B’s bike over to Daddy’s and saw my other baby girl, our dog who I haven’t seen since H was born almost 2 years ago. I nearly cried when I saw her and she went mental, you can definitely say that she remembers me!

 

I got home, ate, showered and changed before heading to the pub for the 1st time in 2010!! It’s been a long old 4 months I can tell you. Going out with friends is my 1 release, the time I can be 100% myself without the girls, without thinking about work, just be me!! And actually for the 1st time since I moved here I was out in male company for most of the night (We had to do the obligatory drink with the parents!!!). I have always got on better with blokes than women, I don’t know why just have and as much as I love all my girlie friends I have made here, I do miss the different humour a night out makes with blokes – maybe it’s the military humour I grew up with and the fact it takes quite a bit to offend me!

 

So at 3am this morning I rolled into bed. I was fairly tipsy it has to be said. But actually I wasn’t completely hammered! I slept not too well, as is the case when it’s alcohol induced sleep. Woke up, shower, dressed, done some jobs round the house. Ate left over kebab for lunch. And after writing this I’m off for a BBQ at my parents. It’s nothing special but right now I’m sat thinking, this is the life. I love my girls to bits as is probably obvious from this blog, but I had forgotten how much I enjoy and need this time to me. As a single parent there is never time for the things you need to do for you – but now I can again! Think I may even get booked in for my hair and nails next weekend – as it’s payday!!!

 

Anyway, that’s all I wanted to say, hadn’t posted in a few days and it’s because at the moment I actually feel like I have a life, and I’m loving living it!!!